Cosmic Friendship

haven't updated this in a while!
So I've been busy preparing to depart at the end of December! Going on exchange to Taiwan next year (2nd semester of my second year). I'm actually kind of excited! Will probably try to figure out some way of blogging/scrapbooking what happens, I dunno, we'll see.

I still remember when this LJ was the primary means of me venting about my family when they lived here; then when they moved away; then about my general failtastic life. Now I'm like... going back to Taiwan again, but this time I'm going on exchange and like WOW THAT'S KIND OF EXCITING AND I REALLY DON'T MIND IT AT ALL.

Been kind of emotional these days, though. I cry easily. I think it's because I'm moving and I just feel sad. :( I live at a homestay but since I'm going to be gone for 2/3 of the year I gotta move my things out and move it back in if I can stay here again Sept 2010. I've got a self-storage unit rented by my dad, so I'm going to leave a bunch of stuff there.

This time moving has been difficult because there were a lot of random clothes and things that aren't really mine, just remnants from what my family owned when we all lived here (and were not put in storage, but rather placed in my room/my homestays' attic). But anyway. It's kind of crazy and I feel like SO EXCITED and I know it's so wrong because I like hate my family lol and it'll probably be hard but still I can't help it at all. MOSTLY BECAUSE. And this is going to sound sad. BUT MOSTLY BECAUSE I KNOW I WILL HAVE SO MUCH OPPORTUNITY TO DANCE AND JUST A;SLDKJFA;SSQUEEEE.

Yeah. Actually. I am planning on going to school in Taipei and taking class like mad and finding lots of dance friends. I have this secret desire to join a group and perform and shizzz. I think I'm insane because I don't make sense and the general desire for this departure is actually just... UNCERTAINTY, MINGLED WITH EXCITEMENT AND TERROR AND NOSTALGIA :'(

I shall be quiet now.

Oh! Also, I HAVE REDISCOVERED MY ARTIST SIDE. YES. Writing isn't my ... main thing anymore. Dance is really appealing. Also visual things. So yar. I'm excited. Because I'm like finally chill enough with myself (at this period in time anyway) to not judge and edit myself when I'm trying to create something and also to learn how to be creative and manage my creative needs even within a busy lifestyle. I used to always think I needed to be emo in order to exercise my creativity. It's really not true...

Life is not perfect. It's got its ups and downs, and I'm not going to fool myself by thinking things are perfect (cause it's when you lie to yourself like that I feel like I get smacked in the face when something doesn't go right). ... Yeah. I don't really want to go into detail.

I feel like I fail to make sense. Also that my emotions are everywhere. But that's okay, I'm moving, and it's a big change. Yeah.

Love you all! Hope you are all having wonderful holidays :)

Current Mood: quixotic
Current Music: Take the Box - Amy Winehouse

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